Izabela Bienko Blogs

Behind this hard exterior 
The cold glass shell
 I yearn for those unwavering 
To shatter my misleading veil
 I see you more clearly
 While casting you out
 Only those willing to crash
 Will fall into... 

It feeds my ego To be good to you I see my shallow doubts Distracted from themselves I care to see you Needing to know me It becomes nothing With time I squander I lift you again So forgotten are my deeds I am too good For you fe... 

You were just here
 A minute ago 
Now two
 Your scent is lingering 
A crease in the pillow
 The last sip of tea
 Now cold
 I lay beside where you used to be Only an hour ago
 Days can pass like... 

If there is one thing
 All too familiar 
It’s the feeling of sadness 
Always Lingering Temporary distractions
 Allow sanity to pretend
 And get through the day
 Survive my pained reflections Once agai... 

I toil and burn At the smell of you Melting all defenses Just the sight of you Caressing my blood Surging it forward Into places I ignore Igniting urges I forgot Nothing stays important Twisting around you Distorting my senses My mind ... 

I love You If I left you It is due To my fears Causing you tears I can’t go on I am already gone My past has come Stirring me numb To deal with mine And finally align Again to you But not too soon And now go So you can so... 

In a glance A gaze You stop With a smile That smirk It shows For a while We seem The same When it’s time I look And see This is it I say To you Thank You  

Becoming is Deleuze’s version of pure and empty time (Stagoll, 2005). Meaning that time is purely perceptual, not real. Empty of the tangible realness that we pretend exists because otherwise we might get lost between where we are ‘supposed’ to go, w... 

The things that are manifest in our present are the products of becoming, and this state of creation never ceases. We are the continual force of becoming, or rather, the continual creative force of becoming manifests us, in the present moment, in rea... 

“The western scientific notion of biological development, with its neat series of stages and normative benchmarks, forces the world of growth and change into a predictable linear progression of limited alternatives” (Skott-Myhre, 2008, p. 42). With t... 

I can sit here by myself For hours and hours I’m fine I will be here by myself And you won’t know My tears My fears have gone They hide Within My tears have dried They scarred My face You won’t know It’s mine this time So you c... 

At times of the greatest yearning When loneliness obsesses me I fear the most Resist all that I have created What if these dreams are all I ever have? I fear letting them go To wait, To see them come back changed, or not at all I dre... 

I fit of don't I sit or go I feel shut out So i shut up Then shut down Completely shut off I might not return I may smile and turn Then shut down Completely shut off I shut myself out And shut the fuck up I go and sit ... 

So I beg and I plead But never you show I continue to feed I continue to flow I’m somehow soothed By life never ending And forever moved And forever sending To you Back to me Can’t you see I am ready For you You come and you go ... 

Single Rain Drops Fall together Bound together Ascend together Together for life they remain Forever Love they maintain Izabela BIenko 

i didn't see i held your hand so tightly thinking you had my best interest in mind i just followed you walked beside you let you lead me and when you decided to let go only then did i see how lost i really was among the strange surrounding... 

Waiver and loose it all seems to be All seems to wait so patiently Silent and calm, standing alone Looking upon my dreams forgone Coming from there it took so long So empty now and I don’t belong Nothing begins now as I hold this space From ... 

The flames burn slowly Waiting for them As mesmerizing as can be Can be so painful To watch the flame grow weak Feel the heat whither down Away from me I feed it but alas Just a few embers glow The stars are left now all alone I hope fo... 

This fear that surrounds you Controlling your fate Not fate at all Simply a choice You are no victim Unless you choose to be Surrendering to fear Makes you a victim Opening to love Invites freedom Choice and opportunity To rise a... 

You’re here, you’re gone You’re right, I’m wrong So still the air Chaos to bear You lead, I follow Your love I borrow So secret and kept Those tears I wept You come to see Your gaze on me So faint afar Closer we are You go and... 

Here And not There But gone Illusion Of you Near And far Away But Close Seclusion Of me Quiet And waiting Still But stirring Delusion Of us Hope And fear Yearn But grip Confusion Of it Come And go ... 

Furiations tear me from inside I cannot breathe well My sympathies fell Rages run deep, within me they confide Hurt by silence Once again accepting the absence Madness swirls until the world becomes faint Thoughts consume the real I... 

A familiar prickly feeling Hallow and deep Swallow my insides and creep A numbing of senses Empty and alone Apathy I’ve outgrown A need for it Intense and hard Waiting to be scarred A hunger for it Thirst for more To fulfill ... 

Longing for movement within the stillness Any sound to ease this pain These unpredictable tears Shaking loose from us So heavy, my hand becomes And lifeless the air that suffocates me Accepting our life now lived Together, forever rememb... 

Probably i'm the last single girl probably not but it seems that way yesterday probably tomorrow today counting minutes hours days when to lose hope invite despair cry when there is nothing else to d... 

Anticipate unexpected change that is life, lean into it in open gratitude for the privilege to experience the universe synchronize the infinite matrix of phenomena ready to serve your highest joy, your hearts every desire, and sink deep into the eter... 

I need to resist All this time I don’t have The seconds persist Louder and louder they become Time surrounds me And I hold my breath Watching you go blindly I build my graveyard of tears As your leaving, leaving me Leaving, leaving me L... 

To do this and do that To do all and all to exceed at A contrived scheme Designed as my dream Expected to yield Succumb to my wield Wherefore to repossess aspiration Of my own, feat with obligation Is failure with reason Akin to attainment o... 

I've asked myself that question many times I've given my heart up to any signs What was once so clear now so hazy I catch myself leaving it up to the innocent petals of a daisy So intiviting and peaceful in texture Left behind battered and torn ... 

I feel so insecure Alone Unsafe It is irresponsible to offer someone’s hopes, dreams and future, then deny them. I feel cheated Bleeding Your hands held so much My hopes My dreams My heart Now they are stained And you refuse to face me... 

I am so good to you We were so much more than this But your pain blinds us both An attempt to hold on by walking away And I did miss you I still miss you I become so ugly when I loose myself, my power You are beautiful Deserving of me But yo... 

You ask what I want A loaded question With which I am about to shoot myself in the foot You say you meant every word Such Idealism Comes only from the purest of hearts We are connected By chords that choke our truth And hang us from the s... 

A handful of white A few of these pink Some long stemmed of these And a couple of leaves I’ll give it to my mom Or to my best friend This white, pink and green crown I’ve ever so carefully bound Not one out of place Neatly tucked and sew...