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November 30th, 2014 - 12:15 AM
You ask what I want
A loaded question
With which I am about to shoot myself in the foot
You say you meant every word
Such Idealism
Comes only from the purest of hearts
We are connected
By chords that choke our truth
And hang us from the stars
Hours pass by
Sweet everythings fill our souls
Until day breaks and reality crashes
Back and forth
Insecurities roar from ear to ear
But when I see you, everything but my heart remains still
Explain to me how I feel
When I am numb
Until your heavy voice intrudes my senses
Its never enough to be just, good
Your dull knife kills me slowly
Your wit quickly pierces my evil
It sinks deeper through
Stillness seeps in
And then you smile, waking my emotional coma
Sometimes I let go
Mostly I grip until it bleeds
I fear the pain of emptiness
Crawling, scratching at my skin
The thoughts
Maybe someday they will stop to listen
Sundays I wait
I love my sadistic rituals of self loathing
I feel conveniently unworthy of hate
This marks the beginning
Of endless self evaluation
Or did I mean evolution? Same thing...
I go on
Forever stopping
Only to pick up pieces of my shattered heart
I miss the loneliness
Its peaceful at least
Rotting in the hollow fragrance of my own bullshit
Then monday comes
Chaos hugging me tightly
I now have an excuse to need you
Hold me above everyone
Carefully I will pull you up
As they try and snatch at your spirit
Save me as I fall
I hit my head on the way up
And now I must try to remember who I was on the way down
Izabela Bienko
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