Think it's hitting me earlier...here's how my day has been.
Checked for a fasting blood sugar this morning...okay that was too high, I need to do something about this like no more soft drinks...which makes me sad
Cat peed under desk while I was sitting there, my fault, it was day three of not doing litter box...
Coffee brew messed up - undrinkable for mom, of course my fault since I make the coffee even though I don't drink it....new pot, she's short and can't 'see' to make it...um hum...
Mom downloaded 'something' - took me almost an hour to find and eliminate, apparently my fault again since I told her it's okay to let Java update....think she needed to uncheck an add this extra thing box maybe...
Went to order contacts, can't because I want 'this' brand and the Dr. prescribed 'that' brand and we have to wait for her to actually work (thurs, fri only) for an okay
Forgot about a draft coming out of checking account, until after I ordered something last night, leaves me really tight for a few days...grrr again, my fault
Picked up take out for quick cheap dinner, ticket on the bag was right but half of order was wrong...actually took it all back and had it replaced. Never actually done that before.
Also all around bad communications with mother last few days, was yelled at for not a good reason, things are my fault - I don't care, I don't spend time with her (we live together and I work from home), some tears and guilt tripping, etc etc etc
If I could, this would be a perfect time to run away! Can't though, since bank account is low and no one but me cleans the litter box, fixes the coffee, fetches food or cooks when we eat real food, or runs errands. So, if I did leave, my mother would starve, and not have any coffee, cats would...do things, supplies would all run out! SIGHHHHHHHHH
Yep, gonna wait a few weeks to launch that extra shop.....
edit:..........so, tonight when I was filling up my shop's paper towel holder with multifold towels, like I've done for the last 20 years, first time EVER this happens - they exploded on me and fell apart and became unfolded, lol! That was when I remembered that yesterday when I was changing a 3-way bulb, the new bulb zapped and died....have to get another one...it's dark in here. Somebody pull the pins out of my voodoo doll!!