Good Question Robert.....I think I would have to say as I get older not so much but as a passionate lovey dovey type I do *need* the romance....."moments" Romance does make me feel whole and after being with the same man for ten years his acknowledgement is my reward and very much something I savor in the moment. He makes me better, his approval is my identity....thats just a level of respect I have for him.....I am not some broken down house wife who bows to her man.. he very much does the same for me.....but I do believe in love being absolute (again some may say unrealistic) . an example of me "searching".......some may say this is a simple campfire but this is how I see it.
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Its just the two of us. The sun has set; the stars have snuggled in above for the night. Our daughter tucked into her cozy bed. The campfire creates a glow around us as we sip our drinks and flirtatiously converse about memories, our goals, and our future. Sitting across from each other; one on each side of the fire, you take me all in. In this moment you get a glimpse of your best friend, you know
..the one you fell in love with. Enjoying the sounds of my voice hearing me laugh and not worrying about anything, or am not stressed for a change. We are really listening to what each other has to say, enjoying each others company. Theres no worries out here, our to do lists and money concerns left at home and all that is present a cherry whisky in my hand, a warm fire and the love, friendship and sheer lust we have for one another as the pheromones almost fog the air.
On more than one occasion throughout the night you pause looking at me with that stare of yours. I can see it in your eyes
.there it is, that look you give me. I know what it means, but I pretend I dont. I am enjoying it too much and refuse to let it to end. With all of the elements around us, the earth beneath us, the water from a near by river flowing in the background, the crisp night air, and the radiant fire burning; what a perfect moment.
and there you have it an over the top Tragic Idealist and I am not afraid to admit it.