Mentally I already slipped off the edge

My life has always been ...uh different. Interesting, exciting and even a bit crazy at times. Just enough high points to keep moving through the traumatic lows up till this moment.
When it rains it pours
Can't win for losing
One thing after another
Snowball effect

I could add many more old sayings, but they are all the same in the end. They are my life

Everyone goes through a rough patch or two in their life, I. Get that. How much can one person take before they just can't take any more? How many times can you pick up the pieces and go on?

My brain, in self-defense, closed itself off. I have panic attacks regularly now when I try to deal with my reality. It's seems as if something new goes wrong each day and I just can't deal.

Instead I escape into music and my images- except even that has been tainted. Even my computer is now conspiring against me. My laptop is falling apart, internet won't hardly work, and I Have even lost many important images(to me Atleast). I'm actually writing this on my phone because of that, and my phone has become my camera as well.

Seriously had enough.

P.S. out of work, credit maxed, savings gone, and I'll be homeless in a few weeks too. Done.