First day of chemo.

First day of chemo. Exhausted and tiered. I'm really feeling shit now. I even don't know if I care about my recovery. And I understand that for a lot of you my situation is not very interesting. I'm just one of your FB friends somewhere in nowhere land and you all have your own daily hassle. Who needs the sad story of another cancer patient. Who, like a lot of cancer patients is loosing slowly many of his social contacts because those contacts think they will get a deadly disease them selfs if they get in touch with you.
It is damned hard. Tough time for my wife and me with no help and the hill to climb up becomes steeper every day. You probably have no idea what we are going through and I don't blame you. I don't take pictures anymore and for me facebook chanced into a picture book to sometimes enjoy and like now and then. The support I got in the beginning just after the operation has gone and I understand.
Things has gotten less important for me. The will to survive is slowly vanishing. I get my medical treatment and what ever will be, will be.