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Robert James Hacunda

1 Year Ago

Does Painting Make You Psychotic?

Do you ever work so much painting that you begin to feel as if you have entered an alternate reality .. The pain your body is in some how fueling this out of body experience to the point of sensing if one is not careful one can tumble down into a psychotic Dali like seizure...????
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Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

i think you should switch to water based paints.


---Mike Savad

 

That would be easy but I'm not sure it would alleviate the phenomenon ....... damn I need a coffee..............

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

when i tossed the nail polish around, it was a bit of a high, not sure how people stand it to get high off the stuff. but overall i don't feel much emotion for anything i do. i'm more formula based, even if it's babies eating babies, i don't feel much for that stuff.

though i also don't drink anything with caffeine in it, so that might be it as well.

---Mike Savad

 

I F A Shores

1 Year Ago

No but, coz I work in a small room, it does make me high, sorta

 

Kylani Arrington

1 Year Ago

That only happens to me when I've been working on a piece for too long... slumped over the canvas with paint all over my hands and arms or my face. If it's been over two hours, I need to stop. It becomes too emotional and that's what makes me crazy.

Although some might argue that it's the paint itself...

 

Dazzle Zazz

1 Year Ago

I can relate...after a few hours crouched behind my camera, in the dark, staring into flashing disco lights, my hand cramped into 'the claw' and my brain stimulated by loud music (triggers some of the lights) and dizzying flashing, not to mention some of my new lights interfere with the camera view screen and create bands of moving light in colors across the view screen (doesn't show up in the photos) but makes it very difficult to even see what you are taking a photo of....when I come upstairs to normal light, and a grey colorless day, it seems strangely like I have been in some sort of alternate reality. And reality seems a bit dull in comparison.


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do you think being in touch with your emotion facilitates these kind of experiences? I have to be working for a long time also under a dead line either self imposed or in reality to really get there..
Dazzle flashing lights can trigger seizures

 

I F A Shores

1 Year Ago

And reality can seem a bit dull in comparison

Abso-flipping-lutely!!!

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

if i focus too hard and i just want to get it done i'll get a sort of tunnel vision and all peripheral vision darkens and all i see is the work. but i really have to be in the zone for that to happen, and i try not to let it happen because i find creativity leaves a bit.

---Mike Savad

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

Rabbit holes are good. (sometimes) I tend to like them.

 

Mike I've heard you say before that you were not in touch with emotion when working... yet your work has such a strong sentimental draw in a way or a heavy object orientation... Do you not feel a connection to the images you produce?

 

Dazzle Zazz

1 Year Ago

Robert, only if you are prone to having them, which, after having stared at flashing lights as much as I have, I have ascertained that I am not susceptible to having a seizure from this activity...thank goodness :)

 

Angelina Vick

1 Year Ago

I'm not sure I can say I've experienced what you described...the bordering on the psychotic part.

But...I can say that I know I reach points where it's almost obsessive. If I have a lot of good ideas, and I am achieving what I set out to do...sometimes I just don't want to stop working. Even if I need to do other things, like eat, sleep....buy groceries. Finding the perfect groove for my work...it's not something that happens all the time. So I just keep working until I'm totally spent sometimes. It's like finding the perfect comfy in my bed...who wants to move out of that?

 

Xoanxo Cespon

1 Year Ago

@Robert, I don't, but I do often vanish during the process :-)

 

I'm at a point right now of visual distortions and sensory detachment .. I will do one or two more hours work than shower, eat and hope to come in for a smooth landing..........................Xo I don't how to vanish but I can get really really small.........................................RJ

 

I F A Shores

1 Year Ago

O My! I thought he said Varnish .......

 

Janine Riley

1 Year Ago

More like keeps me from becoming psychotic. Gives me something tangible to obsess about - & is a great distraction to avoid interacting with people that can tend to make me feel psychotic. Lol.

 

Shana Rowe

1 Year Ago

Yup, painting drives me crazy, for the reasons Angel already described. It's funny just earlier today at my regular job, I was wondering how good for me painting actually is because when I am on a binge, my regular non-painting, 9-5 life is so hard to get through. I would rather be in my own little world painting. It seems painting is an obsession, and it is also a fantasy land for me, where I can make my own world. When I am not in that world regular everyday life can seem so depressing. (Besides when I am spending time with my husband, he always makes me happy ;) ) It hard forcing myself to go to work everyday when all I can think about is being home doing artwork. Everything else seems so meaning less.

When I am in a good groove, I can't sleep because there are to many ideas floating around in my head. When I am in the middle of a painting I usually will do it in one sitting because I am so engrossed. Then when I am finished hours have passed, and I am dizzy because I am hungry and didn't even notice. Not to mention the strain on my back. I have been trying to slow down lately and take more breaks in between, and it has helped some.

 

Xoanxo Cespon

1 Year Ago

LOL Beth, By the time I varnish (if I do) I am usually back :-)

 

Tony Murray

1 Year Ago

"Do you ever work so much painting that you begin to feel as if you have entered an alternate reality .. The pain your body is in some how fueling this out of body experience to the point of sensing if one is not careful one can tumble down into a psychotic Dali like seizure...???? "

Yes, but it's a good psychosis. Your brain can create some very powerful drugs.

 

Xoanxo Cespon

1 Year Ago

Thanks Robert!!! It might be that just "one small step...." :-)

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

nope, not really. i work with shots based on what other people should feel, based on lighting, angle, shading and color. once i make one i forget that i ever made it and move on to the next one. it's just a picture really. i might feel distracted, but i don't think that's one of the emotions.


---Mike Savad

 

Dan Daugherty

1 Year Ago

I have to remain very "Aware" and safe in order to even work on my Sculptures. I don't want to cut off a finger or Torch someone walking into my shop...LOL... But I have been so involved in my work that I forget about time...And the good part, forgetting about pain sometimes, although it always seems to catch up to me.

Like Angelina said...When things are coming together who wants to stop.

 

John Crothers

1 Year Ago

Another question would be

Does a psychotic painter KNOW they are psychotic?

 

he can only tell he's psychotic in relationship to others...

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

How much for a decent psychosis now days? Mine are worn out. No trade value at all. I prefer Carlos Castaneda to Dali.

 

now we're talking A Separate Reality.... gotta dance between the two worlds like an actor....

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

But, which world is real? What if they are all real? It is good to drag the minds images from one world to another. Wish I could take a camera.

 

Yes they are both real only separated from one another.. it's when we try to bring them together in the same room that it get's crazy...no pictures aloud least you miss it

 

Mary Bedy

1 Year Ago

I haven't done an oil painting for 20 years, but you guys are bringing back memories. I used to find a scary spot where I was completely wrapped up on a portion of a painting, unaware of anything else, then the panic would set in when I realized I was not getting it right and the more I tried to blend and fix, the worse it got....Of course, that was oils, I have never been able to get the hang of acrylics because I'm a "blender". I could spend an hour blending a 6 inch portion of a canvas. And yes, I had the tunnel vision.

 

Mary, I often get into trouble when I brake new ground and do my best work, an anxiety that I can't maintain it so I keep pushing till exhaustion and frustration derail it...

 

Mary Bedy

1 Year Ago

I often found when I left the room and didn't look at the thing for a couple of days, it wasn't as bad as I thought when I came back and really studied it. I was a traditional oil painter anyway (that is, let it dry for a week between sessions), so I had some time to think about how to fix something when I got too frustrated with it.

 

Kip DeVore

1 Year Ago


I think it can make us kind of weird -- not the chemical kind of weird, but the emotional kind of weird...

 

so again emotion is being connected to this crazy place we go..? there must also be some fear involved no?

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

"You can't get there from here" or can you...............

 

Some people actually paint for the joy of it...I do it for the suffering....

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

"there must also be some fear involved no?" Fear is a luxury not many artists can afford. But you know that Robert

 

William Allen

1 Year Ago

Like Angelina said, it's hard to stop, when it's going good, dispite the fact you should be doing something else. A conversation sometimes heard in this house; "Hey Bill, It's time to eat." and I say,"Can you hold it off about a half hour, the canvas is talking to me." Then she says, "OK".( she understands.)mmmmmmmmaybe we're both Phychotic.....

 

Yes fear can not be indulged in .. Allen, when I'm "out" if someone is talking to me
I understand only one word at time and once they've finished I usually say" What?" and have no idea what they said

 

Kip DeVore

1 Year Ago


Yes, fear is involved -- fear of the canvas

It is nice to be able to paint for the joy of it

 

Thanks Kip, I feel anxiety for sure but I don't feel the Joy of Painting very often..I feel satisfaction perhaps.. my body has been put through the ringer and I still paint with vigor but I often feel trapped and second guess my choices in life..

 

Daniel Rauch

1 Year Ago

unused talent becomes a curse

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

For some Robert, pain is something to seek out. It becomes an end in itself.

 

Shaunna Juuti

1 Year Ago

I feel nervous sometimes even scared when I try a new drawing or pastel because Im not sure if I can get my vision and my hands to work on the same level. sometimes it happens and other times it doesnt , I feel all the emotions when I make art because I am an artist that sees the drawing if it was right infront of me . for instance Daisys red blanket ...It was a vision of seeing her snuggling her favorite blanket in the whole world and because I seen and felt what she was seeing and feeling I could bring it to life .

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

That is what it is all about Shaunna

 

Well I'm in enough pain to be inspired...Yes, I get bored doing the kind of work I'm good at too...

 

David Larsen

1 Year Ago

Am I the only one that does not get stressed out or anxious when I paint? I find it very soothing and relaxing. It is alone time. Even when I have a bad session, I simply scrape it off, regroup, and try it again later. It is not a huge stressor.

Also, I've got to say that I'm pretty satisfied with where I'm going. Most of the pieces I start turn out okay in the end. In fact, I even knock it out of the park once and a while. That is not to say that I think I'm god's gift to painting or anything. I'm just happy with my progress.

In addition, I've never had any alternate reality, out of body experiences when I paint. It is simply time spent between me and my subject. In fact, if anything, it is my time out from the rest of my life. It is quiet, relaxing, zero stress.

Painting definitely does not make me crazy.

 

David, do the you ability to zone out? I don't, painting makes me hyper aware .. I can't veg out on TV, if I watch a good movie I'm up all night reliving every moment

 

Robert Kernodle

1 Year Ago

... been away from the FAA forums lately, but when I took a look today, I saw this painting-psychosis thread that looked interesting, so here's my thought:

Maybe painting does not make a person psychotic, but rather, a precursor psychotic leaning drives a person to paint to begin with. Then the psychosis (via obsessive focus) can take full hold, if the activity proceeds long enough.

In other words, painting doesn't make you crazy; crazy makes you paint (^_^).

- Robert Kernodle

 

This is a corner of the room I've been working on 8 hours a day for 7 days in the city.. It's been a sensory depravation launched into a fantasy world, returning to the mountains today I saw the real light with much more appreciation ...
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Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

i still say it's the fumes, open the window, turn on a fan. all that paint in one spot... it should do something bad. even latex paint, i think it has ammonia in it. it had something that offended the nose anyway...


---Mike Savad

 

I get a similar reaction when working outside in the open air..I had the window open with a fan

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

maybe it's the colors? or your concentrating just a wee too hard on it? well, just don't cut off your ear or anything.


.... you'll never get the blood off the canvas.

---Mike Savad

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

mmmmm.... you don't have any paints that have mercury in them do you? how about those walls - lead paint? those are potentials if your right near them. looks like you smoke so maybe if your hands had paint on it, your digesting it?


---Mike Savad

 

I had my blood tested a few years back for metals and they said I had unusually low levels especially for a painter.. and I don't smoke anymore...I did tile work a long time ago and once had to do an entire bathroom floors and walls in those little black and white tiles from the 20s and had an even worse reaction...

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

maybe you need more metals?

then it could be related to epilepsy and the pattern of colors are a trigger. i suppose the easiest test is to look at a checkerboard and see if that does anything. or look at an optical illusion of just dots, the one that makes it look like they are flashing or are connected by lines. your eye would flicker between them and it could cause a reaction. how are you with florescent lights? does the flicker make your brain buzz?

you might want to see a doctor about it in case it does get worse. i'm guessing epilepsy because you seem to follow some of the traits, if it's not fumes, or metals, i'm betting it's something with that in mind.


---Mike Savad

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

http://www.eye-illusions.com/black-dots-illusion.html

this will put your brain into the loopy zone, i'm curious how this makes you feel.


---Mike Savad

 

Robert Kernodle

1 Year Ago

The chemical reaction is NOT in the paints or in the air you breathe. It's all in your brain.

This is your brain -- [APPROPRIATE ILLUSTRATION]

This is your brain on painting -- [ILLUSTRATION OF SCRAMBLED EGGS]

(^_^) ....hehehehehe!

I once spent months on a 9-foot by 6-foot pencil drawing on my then efficiency apartment wall. I didn't ask the landlord first whether I could do it. I eventually moved away, and I bet the refurbish people gladly painted right over it, to prepare the apartment for the next renter.

- Robert

 

good dx mike..I have a brain tumor that impairs my vision and also have a long history of seizures..Semmicks avatar gets to me

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

so there you go... i guess that the pattern must fire in the area of the tumor and create this newer fun side effect. i wonder if you had a color over your eyes if it would cut down on the issue. for dyslexics, if you wear pink sunglasses it cuts down on the distraction. sometimes the words will jump around on the page, so maybe the same thing will help you? it will taint the colors you use though so you would have to experiment.

is the tumor on the right side? on the creative side? it would make sense if it was. i'll get a little dizzy if i over think something, though i think that's just brain noise.

i wonder if you listened to music if that would help, something to distract the brain while your doing something in color. try different kinds to see if there's a counter. like if you listened to heavy metal, something with a dense theta beat, would it worsen it? or if you listen to something like gaga or gut wrenching madonna which should stir a beta beat, which i think should effect the left half of the brain, same with classical music, maybe all that might counter balance it?

---Mike Savad

 

Right cavernous sinus entangled in optic nerves and encasing the internal carotid ... the black spot is the carotid... I do better with tinted glasses and I don't like music unless driving or alone and usually it's about the lyrics..I have almost perfect pitch and can pick up a musical instrument and teach myself to play it in a very short time...the artist Semmecks avatar from FAA jambs my brain...
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Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

yeah i just looked him up, it engages both sides of the brain and that causes conflictions, i would bet those stare o gram things do the same thing. i wonder if you listened to either trance or something classical. vilvadi where he uses a combination that doesn't give me a headache. though the trance should be the beat kind, not the one that switches channels on you, inducing dizziness. just a rhythmic sound. like i need to hear multiple beats, certain kinds of heavy metal will have like a general beat, then a smaller amount of beats (hard to explain), seems to relax me and keep me concentrated at the same time. but i have to feel the music so bass is needed.

i wonder if simply wearing an eye patch on that side would be enough to slow the feeling. because near as i can tell the patterns or color combo is simply exciting the tumor in an odd way and causing the feeling. might be a valid experiment since the tint seems to help a bit. you'll look like a pirate though.

you should put a price on that brain, it could probably sell.

---Mike Savad

 

I was going to donate it to science Mike.....................I've been told an eye patch may be in order someday but I can live with where I'm at right now..... I play the prayer flute and harmonica ..the flute calms me and harm charges me.I like to chant a good funeral dirge .. have done hand drumming but not in a while.... I live with a head ache almost 24/7.. are you epileptic ?

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

the picture or your brain? you might want to hold off with the brain until your dead....

part of the music is that your playing it which will probably charge a different area of the brain. where listening to music will excite a different part. the visuals of a brain are in the back, i think the front is memory and lower than that, thought? i guess maybe the tumor is in the thought area of the brain....

not epileptic, but i do have self diagnosed discalcula, it's like dyslexia, just as hard to spell, but instead of switching letters i do it with numbers. 3 or more forget it. i had a shipping and inventory job once. i didn't know i was doing anything wrong. my eyes would see the number, in my head i would know the number, my hand would write it's own version, i would see it like it should be written, it was wrong. 669 696 stuff like that. i didn't know i was doing anything wrong until they fired me. they said i kept doing it and it wasn't the first time - why didn't you say something the first time it happened? we didn't want you to feel bad. so firing me, will make me feel good?

from that point on i still catch myself but only because i read the number from different segments or backwards to check myself.

they say that dyslexics - their mind works differently then others. many cast them off as being dumb because the words don't stay on the page and it's hard to concentrate. but what's really happening is, the right half of the brain can be like 4 times or more faster then the left half. the right brain solves patterns, while the left gives meaning to the shapes. so by the time the left brain parsed the word, the right brain finished a long time ago. but because letters are just shapes, and often likes to group things up in an order that makes sense, the words may rearrange themselves.

like united - will always read as untied to me. because the line in the -i- and in the -t- are universal in shape and can move without a problem, same goes with numbers.

and i learned how i read things when i started to study japanese (not so much now since i do the art stuff now), but when i read english i find that i will usually look at the third letter in, skip to the first, then try to guess the word based on length, shape, etc i'm right most of the time, but it depends which i read it from. same with road signs. read it with my right eye and it makes little sense, read it with my left and there's meaning (it makes little sense since the brain sides switch, but there are parallel brains in thinking processes, hard to say). i do know that i think in pictures and videos, not in words, so all of that may have something to do with it.


---Mike Savad

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

thinking about it, i wonder if your increasing the size of the tumor by feeding it with all the painting your doing, and if you used an eye patch, or just a cool compress each day if the symptoms would lessen.

---Mike Savad

 

I was told to push myself visually on top of painting I am reading a lot, something I only do in stages..when i stop reading it's harder for me to pick it up again..after a few weeks reading I can do it with less pain..the one eye doesn't track well so I see slightly double and the pupil doesn't react the same...

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

i still wonder if making the other eye stronger would actually help. but i'm not a doctor so i don't know if it would hurt more. it's just my reasoning that if you have a sore spot, that if you poke it it will always be sore or more sore. but if you leave it alone it will go away. i doubt it would go away in this case, but maybe it would me either more balanced, or the area the tumor is effecting will be transfered to another part of the brain if it's no longer in use. or so goes the theory.

---Mike Savad

 

I am , RJ....epileptic

 

Mike, my bf is word dyslexic. He sees things far more logically and all things for him are visual...ie he sees things as images. His temper is short if he has to read things and he suffers headaches etc through reading

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

if i see a word in my head it will be there for a second and just fade, often the word is a red or a maroon color. i can read more or less fine, but numbers, forget it. though try the pink sunglasses on him. i heard it does wonders

http://irlen.com/index.php

you might try using photo gels as an experiment to see if that works.


---Mike Savad

 

He already has a pair :)

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

maybe a different color? different shade? sometimes they say it's the lighting source.

---Mike Savad

 

Do you still have seizures Beth I know we talked about this before? I was on Medication that was making them worse, since off the med I have a much better life for me.... Do you guys think our different brain functions show up in the work? I had a doctor say that he thought my eye problems actually helped me see light in a more acute way..

 

Do I think it shows up? Absolutely. Not so much in the work I do for others but, for the work I do for myself, yes.

Yes I do still have them but thankfully petit mal and few and far between now. Did stop breathing in the last one though... thank heavens for bf LOL

 

Do you feel like working to hard aggravates it? I know when I'm stressed I can't spell to save my life...

 

Surprisingly it doesn't seem to unless I am tired too. I am a pretty laid back person in the real world so that helps :) Life is not worth stressing and the illness causes enough by itself, RJ. I think it is okay to stress over the things you can change and just go with the flow on the rest

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

Does Escher's work bother you? How about some of the mathematical illusions? What happens when you look at Semmicks icon?

 

Escher never noticed but than again his work always bored me...to much id, like some overindulged nerd going oh this is cool...Semmecks image jambs my brain..I see it one way then almost as hallucination I see it the next, my brain wants to get out of it but can't then it goes back and forth without my control and hurts my head

 

Mike Savad

1 Year Ago

in his case it's when he sees something and it uses both sides of the brain, there will always be confliction, that's what makes illusions work. the right side sees the picture, the left tries to make sense of it and the battle of the two is what makes it fun. but he has a major short on the visual part which i guess is making things hard. so like images with checkers, those dots, that negative space thing will do it. while perspective illusions should be ok because it only involves half the brain, or so goes the theory.

---Mike Savad

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

"Ther are things known and there are things unknown, and in between are the doors to perception". Huxley Could be you are knocking at a door you may or may not want to go through.

 

Yes Mark My doctor/shaman told me it has left me privy to certain information I would not be privy to otherwise.

 

Mark James Perry

1 Year Ago

I'm extremely interested in what else the witch doc has to say. Could be time for peyote, You never know.

 

Penny M

1 Year Ago

It's a good question, based on the discussion board tonight...

 

I F A Shores

1 Year Ago

Probably the best asked for a while, Penny

 

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