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Do you ever work so much painting that you begin to feel as if you have entered an alternate reality .. The pain your body is in some how fueling this out of body experience to the point of sensing if one is not careful one can tumble down into a psychotic Dali like seizure...????
when i tossed the nail polish around, it was a bit of a high, not sure how people stand it to get high off the stuff. but overall i don't feel much emotion for anything i do. i'm more formula based, even if it's babies eating babies, i don't feel much for that stuff.
though i also don't drink anything with caffeine in it, so that might be it as well.
That only happens to me when I've been working on a piece for too long... slumped over the canvas with paint all over my hands and arms or my face. If it's been over two hours, I need to stop. It becomes too emotional and that's what makes me crazy.
Although some might argue that it's the paint itself...
I can relate...after a few hours crouched behind my camera, in the dark, staring into flashing disco lights, my hand cramped into 'the claw' and my brain stimulated by loud music (triggers some of the lights) and dizzying flashing, not to mention some of my new lights interfere with the camera view screen and create bands of moving light in colors across the view screen (doesn't show up in the photos) but makes it very difficult to even see what you are taking a photo of....when I come upstairs to normal light, and a grey colorless day, it seems strangely like I have been in some sort of alternate reality. And reality seems a bit dull in comparison.
do you think being in touch with your emotion facilitates these kind of experiences? I have to be working for a long time also under a dead line either self imposed or in reality to really get there..
Dazzle flashing lights can trigger seizures
if i focus too hard and i just want to get it done i'll get a sort of tunnel vision and all peripheral vision darkens and all i see is the work. but i really have to be in the zone for that to happen, and i try not to let it happen because i find creativity leaves a bit.
Mike I've heard you say before that you were not in touch with emotion when working... yet your work has such a strong sentimental draw in a way or a heavy object orientation... Do you not feel a connection to the images you produce?
Robert, only if you are prone to having them, which, after having stared at flashing lights as much as I have, I have ascertained that I am not susceptible to having a seizure from this activity...thank goodness :)
I'm not sure I can say I've experienced what you described...the bordering on the psychotic part.
But...I can say that I know I reach points where it's almost obsessive. If I have a lot of good ideas, and I am achieving what I set out to do...sometimes I just don't want to stop working. Even if I need to do other things, like eat, sleep....buy groceries. Finding the perfect groove for my work...it's not something that happens all the time. So I just keep working until I'm totally spent sometimes. It's like finding the perfect comfy in my bed...who wants to move out of that?
I'm at a point right now of visual distortions and sensory detachment .. I will do one or two more hours work than shower, eat and hope to come in for a smooth landing..........................Xo I don't how to vanish but I can get really really small.........................................RJ
Yup, painting drives me crazy, for the reasons Angel already described. It's funny just earlier today at my regular job, I was wondering how good for me painting actually is because when I am on a binge, my regular non-painting, 9-5 life is so hard to get through. I would rather be in my own little world painting. It seems painting is an obsession, and it is also a fantasy land for me, where I can make my own world. When I am not in that world regular everyday life can seem so depressing. (Besides when I am spending time with my husband, he always makes me happy ;) ) It hard forcing myself to go to work everyday when all I can think about is being home doing artwork. Everything else seems so meaning less.
When I am in a good groove, I can't sleep because there are to many ideas floating around in my head. When I am in the middle of a painting I usually will do it in one sitting because I am so engrossed. Then when I am finished hours have passed, and I am dizzy because I am hungry and didn't even notice. Not to mention the strain on my back. I have been trying to slow down lately and take more breaks in between, and it has helped some.
"Do you ever work so much painting that you begin to feel as if you have entered an alternate reality .. The pain your body is in some how fueling this out of body experience to the point of sensing if one is not careful one can tumble down into a psychotic Dali like seizure...???? "
Yes, but it's a good psychosis. Your brain can create some very powerful drugs.
nope, not really. i work with shots based on what other people should feel, based on lighting, angle, shading and color. once i make one i forget that i ever made it and move on to the next one. it's just a picture really. i might feel distracted, but i don't think that's one of the emotions.
I have to remain very "Aware" and safe in order to even work on my Sculptures. I don't want to cut off a finger or Torch someone walking into my shop...LOL... But I have been so involved in my work that I forget about time...And the good part, forgetting about pain sometimes, although it always seems to catch up to me.
Like Angelina said...When things are coming together who wants to stop.
he can only tell he's psychotic in relationship to others...
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The chemical reaction is NOT in the paints or in the air you breathe. It's all in your brain.
This is your brain -- [APPROPRIATE ILLUSTRATION]
This is your brain on painting -- [ILLUSTRATION OF SCRAMBLED EGGS]
I once spent months on a 9-foot by 6-foot pencil drawing on my then efficiency apartment wall. I didn't ask the landlord first whether I could do it. I eventually moved away, and I bet the refurbish people gladly painted right over it, to prepare the apartment for the next renter.
so there you go... i guess that the pattern must fire in the area of the tumor and create this newer fun side effect. i wonder if you had a color over your eyes if it would cut down on the issue. for dyslexics, if you wear pink sunglasses it cuts down on the distraction. sometimes the words will jump around on the page, so maybe the same thing will help you? it will taint the colors you use though so you would have to experiment.
is the tumor on the right side? on the creative side? it would make sense if it was. i'll get a little dizzy if i over think something, though i think that's just brain noise.
i wonder if you listened to music if that would help, something to distract the brain while your doing something in color. try different kinds to see if there's a counter. like if you listened to heavy metal, something with a dense theta beat, would it worsen it? or if you listen to something like gaga or gut wrenching madonna which should stir a beta beat, which i think should effect the left half of the brain, same with classical music, maybe all that might counter balance it?
Right cavernous sinus entangled in optic nerves and encasing the internal carotid ... the black spot is the carotid... I do better with tinted glasses and I don't like music unless driving or alone and usually it's about the lyrics..I have almost perfect pitch and can pick up a musical instrument and teach myself to play it in a very short time...the artist Semmecks avatar from FAA jambs my brain...
yeah i just looked him up, it engages both sides of the brain and that causes conflictions, i would bet those stare o gram things do the same thing. i wonder if you listened to either trance or something classical. vilvadi where he uses a combination that doesn't give me a headache. though the trance should be the beat kind, not the one that switches channels on you, inducing dizziness. just a rhythmic sound. like i need to hear multiple beats, certain kinds of heavy metal will have like a general beat, then a smaller amount of beats (hard to explain), seems to relax me and keep me concentrated at the same time. but i have to feel the music so bass is needed.
i wonder if simply wearing an eye patch on that side would be enough to slow the feeling. because near as i can tell the patterns or color combo is simply exciting the tumor in an odd way and causing the feeling. might be a valid experiment since the tint seems to help a bit. you'll look like a pirate though.
you should put a price on that brain, it could probably sell.
I was going to donate it to science Mike.....................I've been told an eye patch may be in order someday but I can live with where I'm at right now..... I play the prayer flute and harmonica ..the flute calms me and harm charges me.I like to chant a good funeral dirge .. have done hand drumming but not in a while.... I live with a head ache almost 24/7.. are you epileptic ?
the picture or your brain? you might want to hold off with the brain until your dead....
part of the music is that your playing it which will probably charge a different area of the brain. where listening to music will excite a different part. the visuals of a brain are in the back, i think the front is memory and lower than that, thought? i guess maybe the tumor is in the thought area of the brain....
not epileptic, but i do have self diagnosed discalcula, it's like dyslexia, just as hard to spell, but instead of switching letters i do it with numbers. 3 or more forget it. i had a shipping and inventory job once. i didn't know i was doing anything wrong. my eyes would see the number, in my head i would know the number, my hand would write it's own version, i would see it like it should be written, it was wrong. 669 696 stuff like that. i didn't know i was doing anything wrong until they fired me. they said i kept doing it and it wasn't the first time - why didn't you say something the first time it happened? we didn't want you to feel bad. so firing me, will make me feel good?
from that point on i still catch myself but only because i read the number from different segments or backwards to check myself.
they say that dyslexics - their mind works differently then others. many cast them off as being dumb because the words don't stay on the page and it's hard to concentrate. but what's really happening is, the right half of the brain can be like 4 times or more faster then the left half. the right brain solves patterns, while the left gives meaning to the shapes. so by the time the left brain parsed the word, the right brain finished a long time ago. but because letters are just shapes, and often likes to group things up in an order that makes sense, the words may rearrange themselves.
like united - will always read as untied to me. because the line in the -i- and in the -t- are universal in shape and can move without a problem, same goes with numbers.
and i learned how i read things when i started to study japanese (not so much now since i do the art stuff now), but when i read english i find that i will usually look at the third letter in, skip to the first, then try to guess the word based on length, shape, etc i'm right most of the time, but it depends which i read it from. same with road signs. read it with my right eye and it makes little sense, read it with my left and there's meaning (it makes little sense since the brain sides switch, but there are parallel brains in thinking processes, hard to say). i do know that i think in pictures and videos, not in words, so all of that may have something to do with it.
thinking about it, i wonder if your increasing the size of the tumor by feeding it with all the painting your doing, and if you used an eye patch, or just a cool compress each day if the symptoms would lessen.
I was told to push myself visually on top of painting I am reading a lot, something I only do in stages..when i stop reading it's harder for me to pick it up again..after a few weeks reading I can do it with less pain..the one eye doesn't track well so I see slightly double and the pupil doesn't react the same...
i still wonder if making the other eye stronger would actually help. but i'm not a doctor so i don't know if it would hurt more. it's just my reasoning that if you have a sore spot, that if you poke it it will always be sore or more sore. but if you leave it alone it will go away. i doubt it would go away in this case, but maybe it would me either more balanced, or the area the tumor is effecting will be transfered to another part of the brain if it's no longer in use. or so goes the theory.
Mike, my bf is word dyslexic. He sees things far more logically and all things for him are visual...ie he sees things as images. His temper is short if he has to read things and he suffers headaches etc through reading
if i see a word in my head it will be there for a second and just fade, often the word is a red or a maroon color. i can read more or less fine, but numbers, forget it. though try the pink sunglasses on him. i heard it does wonders
Do you still have seizures Beth I know we talked about this before? I was on Medication that was making them worse, since off the med I have a much better life for me.... Do you guys think our different brain functions show up in the work? I had a doctor say that he thought my eye problems actually helped me see light in a more acute way..
Surprisingly it doesn't seem to unless I am tired too. I am a pretty laid back person in the real world so that helps :) Life is not worth stressing and the illness causes enough by itself, RJ. I think it is okay to stress over the things you can change and just go with the flow on the rest
Escher never noticed but than again his work always bored me...to much id, like some overindulged nerd going oh this is cool...Semmecks image jambs my brain..I see it one way then almost as hallucination I see it the next, my brain wants to get out of it but can't then it goes back and forth without my control and hurts my head
in his case it's when he sees something and it uses both sides of the brain, there will always be confliction, that's what makes illusions work. the right side sees the picture, the left tries to make sense of it and the battle of the two is what makes it fun. but he has a major short on the visual part which i guess is making things hard. so like images with checkers, those dots, that negative space thing will do it. while perspective illusions should be ok because it only involves half the brain, or so goes the theory.