Twinks Loves Easter

Twinks is a pretty little cat I had the chance to "cat sit" for ten days for a neighbor. She is a cat after my own heart, since she is shy and a bit of a 'fraidy cat too. After she decided I was all right, there wasn't enough ear scratching possible, which is why I took my camera to catch her rubbing her ears on her basket. I find her smile irresistible.

This is a fairly new style for me to try, since I added a lot more elements than are in the original photo. To help myself, I actually created a digital collage first of what I wanted the finished painting to look like. It did help, but I still encountered a good bit of creative anxiety in dealing with the complex weave of the basket and the grass texture had me worried too.

Even more powerful was the huge dose of the discouragement tar on my soul that was really slowing me down. This last month I have finally had to admit that I need to go find another job. I have been putting all my energy into getting my art business up and going, but it just isn't enough yet. It's been hard for me to come to terms with. I always think if I just work harder, the money will happen, which may be true, but in this case it just isn't happening fast enough. Job hunting feels like failure and it is distracting, plus I get this awful little voice in my head telling me "why paint and push yourself so hard, no one really cares if you get it done on time or not". This may be true, but it isn't a particularly helpful or motivating voice.

In thinking it over, I am actually proud of myself for fighting through the discouragement sludge and getting this painting completed, even if I missed my deadline. Twinks really is adorable and that doesn't change. I hope her smile is contagious for you too, no matter what time of year it is.

What do you tell yourself to get out of the discouragement tar pit?

>^-^<
Tina

ps. I'll be sharing my digital collage with my newsletter subscribers in the next issue.

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