A little about my journey and my mistakes

Welcome everyone to my blog on FineArtAmercia and hope you enjoy my art creations. All my life I have been drawing and painting. In high school I first started painting in oil but did not know how to work with the media of oil and all my painters were a dark blob and I stopped working in oil. When my daughter turned 14 I started to paint in acrylic and felt it to be very flat so I took a class in oil painting.

I laughed with two friends and said I know the teacher will make me paint fruit and a landscape and yes she did have me paint them both. I gave those paintings to my two friends and then painted my first oil painting of a woman's face in oil. I was in love with the way the eyes popped out and how the under tones were seen though the paint.

My teacher told me that the way I painted hands was amazing and she said that hands are one of the hardest thing to paint. With in 3 months of painting i had my first showing in a friends back yard in Beverly Hills. Sold a few paintings and I thought " wow I'm going to be famous". Silly me what I did not understand that many artist can paint and draw but when it comes to business I was clueless. Having a creative mind was one thing but a business since was another.

I had to leave the huge ego and with that I had to try to understand what I was good at. I really did not like the way my nudes look because they seem to not have the free flow as others painters or the great masters. I had to try to understand my type of creativity and let go of comparing my work to others. I went to so many art galleries showings and look at what was out there and I began to wonder what I was doing wrong?

Painting and drawing and digital art is something that I love to do and not fame or feed my ego it is who I am. I have learned it does not matter how many people like your work or tell you that you're a great artist it is about how you feel. People had said to me you need become a commercial artist but I can't because mine are one of the kind and each one is different.

My mind moves in 100 direction at each second and it's hard for me to stay in one media as I'm self taught in photoshop, building web sites, editing video and producing online TV shows and my painting and drawing has been put on hold until now. Creativity is how my mind think and I do it because I have to as it is part of me and my soul. I can't be a carbon copy of others I can only be myself and that is free from ego and free from self doubt. I have grown to except my art work as it is unique to me and not everyone is going to like it and that does not matter to me.

To all the artist here on FineArtAmercia follow your dream and don't let anyone tell you that your art is not art because in the big picture of life your creativity matters. The world needs more beautiful art and it needs the human souls that think out of the box and create. Go with your gut feeling and hold on the thoughts that float around your brains and create. This is what make us happy...

Walk in peace, love, joy and the light,

Melody