The Dark Era is Over, For Now...

Based on previous entries, it's obvious I was going through a very hard time. The darkness has moved on finally. I am becoming more myself. Full of light. Self acceptance is important. I have been extremely hard on myself to be perfect for a long time. It's such an impossible goal. I went mad trying. Nowadays I am just trying to keep extreme emotions at bay and tell myself it's all ok. Things have been improving greatly. I imagine having my best friend of 17 years around for a week had a lot to do with that. I recently started drinking alcohol again and have now put an abrupt stop to that after being manipulated in a drunken stupor to kiss a girl I don't even really know. It was not enjoyable, hurt my husband's feeling and gave me a 2 day hang over. NEVER again. People doubt me when I say that. But I am dead serious. I avoided the drinking scene for almost 5 years before caving in again. I can do it. I'm focused on purity, health and free-running training.